Whilst the pace of life in Jogja is not a new thing to me the rapidness  that life changes continues to surprise me. Sometimes I wish I could  just sit back and take a breather and watch life pass me by. But of  course that's not probable or likely given the shortness of my time here  and the number of things still left to do.
Jogja to me is like a rollercoaster (pardon the cliche); every time  you're down something happens, an opportunity arises or you meet someone  new who raises your spirits again. Unfortunately at this point in time I  seem to be at the peak of my Jogja rollercoaster and looking at a  rapidly and abrupt end to my journey and I'm scared.
On coming to Indonesia I was warned about the difficulties of settling  into a new life and culture but who's there to advise me how to settle  back into my old life. I feel like I've changed so much as a person in  one short year and just don't know how this is going to transpire in  real life.
Of course I'm excited to see friends and family; I'm sure they'll all  welcome me back into their lives with open arms. But the question  remains am I ready to return and is Australia ready to embrace me?
My ideas about the world have changed since being here and I both look  forward to and am afraid embracing these in my life in Australia. What a  dilemma!